Satan wants you to believe you are not worthy! YOU ARE! Christ died for ALL of us no matter how grievous our sins are. He didn’t say that his blood was sufficient for a select few. When we don’t accept his atoning sacrifice and feel we are not GOOD enough it is like saying that he died for no reason. It doesn’t matter where you were or what you did. All that matters is where you are now and where you are going. Love yourself as much as you love those who you care for. Prayer is a HUGE factor in your conversion. Keep trying and realize that Satan will put doubts into your mind of ill conceived notions that you are not good enough, push those aside. Anything negative is of Satan. Read your scriptures, pray and I promise you will find the joy you so desperately seek. It might not happen overnight but keep pressing forward and you will get there. Christ stands with arms open ready to receive you, you just need to realize your own worth.
A woman had received an invitation to visit a magnificent castle on Saturday. The castle was exquisite and not everyone would be allowed to enter. Only those who had the word “warrior” stamped on their hearts would be invited. To look at her you might see her as nothing more than a peasant. The king knew his servants well and knew who to invite.
Her excitement grew as the day approached for her to attend this grandiose occasion but at the same time she felt apprehension. What if a mistake had been made? She wasn’t sure she was worthy but went in hopes that the king had not been mistaken about her.
As she approached the castle, her heart began to race and she felt her legs weaken. She knew this was a great privilege, one that left her in awe but she was also aware that it would be a major disappointment if she wasn’t allowed access.
She knelt before the massive doors and pressed the button for entrance. As her body was scanned, she closed her eyes and waited for the sound of the doors opening up. What was only a few seconds seemed like an eternity to her.
Then she could hear a voice tell her, “Welcome dear servant, he has been expecting you.”