My Spiritual Report Card

I was sitting in my recliner last night thinking about my day and where I was at in my journey. I was thinking about the things I write and the responses I have gotten over the things I have shared.

One such comment was that something I wrote was shared with my sisters’ family as a spiritual thought of the day. NEVER had I imagined that some experience of mine could be used in such a way. As wonderful as it was to know this it was also a cause for concern to me.

I began to think about what kind of impact was I having on others lives. I started my blogging as an outlet for myself, it has been my replacement for all the medication I was on. It has been my anti depressant. Now knowing that it might have more of an influence on other peoples lives, I realized I had a responsibility.

I knelt and prayed and poured my heart out to my Heavenly Father. I prayed that who ever reads my words may not take what I say as Gospel and that I may be mindful of not becoming boastful, self righteous, or appearing holier than thou. I prayed that I may know that I had His approval at all times and if I should become other than pleasing to Him let Him cripple my hands and my mind so to keep me from saying or doing something that would displease Him.

I can be dense sometimes and so I prayed harder to know beyond a shadow of a doubt that what I was posting and blogging about was in tune with Him from whom all blessings come.

In the morning when I started up my tablet, I read my Scripture of the day on my widget and it was from D & C 18:
16 And now, if your joy will be great with one soul that you have brought unto me into the kingdom of my Father, how great will be your joy if you should bring many souls unto me!

Now my only problem is trying type this all out while so many tears fall out of gratitude.

Forgiveness Not For the Faint Hearted

I have been working on forgiving others who have wronged me or my children. I must not leave the world unless I have real forgiveness in my heart, which has lead me to examine what that truly means.

In so doing I have learned that it isn’t necessarily going and expressing my unsolicited forgiveness to the individuals unless they ask me for it. It is having it in my heart for each person so I can stand before my maker with a pure heart.

Although the offending parties may not know or even care, the Savior will know and He is the one who can extend his mercy and grace to me for being less than perfect. He is the one who I need to please. I love knowing this and in my prayers I ask to help me see them as He would have me see them. I have not seen them yet as He does but the images of how they appeared to me are gone and I am free from the encumbered anger and resentment I once felt.

Ye shall know the truth, and truth shall make the free. John 8:32