I Need Thee Every Hour

Yesterday started out really good. I had a full day. I had to get an insurance form mailed off for my homeowners association. I had a huge list of things to buy at the store to help me prepare for Easter, things to buy for my Easter centerpiece I was creating. It was my mom’s birthday and I wanted to get her a helium balloon that read Happy Birthday and I was going to take it to 2541 Perry Avenue and let the balloon go just to let her know I loved her and missed her. I also needed to go to Goodwill and find a platter for our Pre-Easter dinner on Saturday and find a huge pot to boil potatoes in.

Then I needed to get back to vacuum the floor where the other sofa had been so that when David showed up after work to set up my new couch, it would be clean. I also needed to do laundry, then oh yeah I had to contact the missionaries and ask them to drop off a Book of Mormon so I could gift it to my son on Saturday. Oh boy I also need to time dinner right as I was going to make home-made Sailsbury steak for David. Oh wow I need to work on my 4 piece place setting and work on my Easter centerpiece.The store didn’t have any helium balloons except for Happy Easter ones.

I was able to get the rest of everything on my list. I got the insurance application mailed off. When I got home, I unloaded my car and got almost everything brought into the trailer and I put things away. I got my floor vacuumed, I got my laundry finished except for putting things away but everything got folded.

David called and asked me nervously how important it was for me to come by and do my couch or if he could wait till Friday. I said it could wait and for him not to worry or stress over it. I figured he was tired from working all day.

I began to work on my centerpieces for Easter and the place settings. I called the missionaries and they brought over a Book of Mormon right away. I sat it down on the end table. I continued to work on my centerpiece then realized I needed to make dinner. So I got up and looked at the recipe for homemade Sailsbury steak and realized it was too late to start on that. In my effort to get at least the place settings finished, I made a mistake and ended up throwing them away.

I sat down with my dinner, chicken cup o’noodles and as I began to eat, I realized that in trying to make my day as productive as possible I had made it counter productive. Doubts began to enter my mind such as well it was a dumb idea anyway and he won’t accept anything you have to say, you know how he is! Discouragement filled my heart and in the midst my thoughts were Wait a minute! You were sure yesterday and this morning. Suddenly I could not feel the presence of my Heavenly Father in my life and I wondered where had he gone, why had he had left me? What did I do wrong? I started to feel frantic and wondered if I would ever feel that again.

I felt so empty inside and I rushed into my bedroom, dropped to my knees pleading Heavenly Father don’t leave me, I need you. I can’t go back to what I was. The road I was on was my refuge from the life as I once knew. Without you by my side life will have no value, no meaning. I won’t care if I live or die! Please come back, please! Tell me what I need to do.

I got up and climbed into bed, closed my eyes and I heard a gentle voice saying, “I am still here, daughter. I am always here.” Through the merkiness of my thoughts a hand stretched forth, I reached and held it and I was pulled from the dense fog I was in, I could see before me was a path that was straight and all manner of debris was gone. I thought, Oh my Lord, my God there you are!

It wasn’t He who had left but it was I who had wandered away. In my efforts to make this Easter perfect and focusing on so much, I had let go enough to stumble alone. I closed my eyes and once again my tears of gratitude washed all doubt and discouragement away. I held his hand next to my cheek and he said, “Shall we continue on?” I said, “Oh yes, please.” I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.

I need Thee every hour
Most gracious Lord
No tender voice like Thine
Can peace afford
I need Thee, O I need Thee
Every hour I need Thee
O bless me now, my Savior
I come to Thee
I need Thee every hour
Stay Thou nearby
Temptations lose their power
When Thou art nigh
I need Thee, O I need Thee
Every hour I need Thee
O bless me now, my Savior
I come to Thee
I need Thee every hour
In joy or pain
Come quickly and abide
Or life is vain
I need Thee, O I need Thee
Every hour I need Thee
O bless me now, my Savior
I come to Thee
O bless me now, my Savior
I come to Thee
Just as I am
Without one plea
But that thy blood
Was shed for me
And that Thou bids me
Come to Thee
Oh, Lamb of God
I come, I come
Just as I am
And waiting not
To rid my soul
Of one dark blot
To Thee whose blood
Can cleanse each spot
Oh, Lamb of God
I come, I come
Come, ye sinners
Poor and needy
Bruised and broken
By the fall
Jesus ready
Stands to save you
For love pardoning
Love for all
He is able
He is able
He is willing
Doubt no more
He is able
He is able
He is willing
Doubt no more